I Plan It All Out. Plan It Real Good.

You know what I love to do?

I love it more than snuggling up on a big ol' couch with a blanket, a movie, some candles & a cat, while the rain rushes to the ground in streaming lines. More than sipping coffee on an autumn morning, watching the leaves dance their way from branch to grass. Even more than laughing real loud at family dinners.


 I love to plan. And I mean plan, man the kind that involves spread sheets and agendas and secret bank accounts and different colored sharpie markers. I like love need to plan. It helps me look forward and feel okay facing what's yet to come, that unknown, gray area I refer to as the future. Dear God, I hate that word. And so I plan. I plan and plan and plan. I plan to save money to move out of my parents house and begin a life, a real life life. I research different places to live across America {and abroad} and then I come up with a list of cities I want to move to--Portland, Austin, Boston. Then I apply for approximately 456 jobs and send my resume into a black internet hole. Never to be heard of again.

I plan and I plan and I plan, plan for a plan. Plan fails, I fail, and I plan some more.

What happens when all the plans start to squash all the dreams?

16 comments:

  1. Right there with ya girl. I am also a meticulous planner. It feels so good! It's the feeling of exerting some form of control over this chaotic universe. :) Keep working hard.. It sounds like good dreams and big ambitions are coming your way!

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  2. I used to plan and plan and plan. And sometimes it felt nothing would ever work. Then all the sudden I fell into one of my plans, although in many ways it was entirely unexpected and I can't claw myself out if I wanted to and I don't. The options sort of disappear as the obligations grow, though not in a bad way. But the dreams never stop. And I still get to plan the details... and somehow all those little details end up being the bigger plan over time anyhow. It's just less obvious.

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  3. oh my goodness. I am the biggest planner in the entire universe, but in all honesty, I believe this is because I am too afraid of the future, too afraid of the unknown, too afraid to just let things be and pan out as they should. Planning is great and all -- it's so, so good to have a direction in life, you know, and I will never understand people that just don't have any sort of idea of what they would like their life to look like in the near and far future, not to mention that I personally think planning/agendas/etc. is super fun -- but at one point you have to realize that your plans are merely a guideline, a suggestion, but that it's OKAY (in fact, it's fabulous) to let life take its twists and turns. After all, the best experiences and the best memories are often unplanned, aren't they?

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  4. Kerry! A fellow Kerry writing here. I've done some digging around and am now fully convinced we are strangely similar - is it the name?! I, too, love to plan, love to pretend like I have any real control over what happens. It's delightful, usually involves some arts & crafts supplies or at least a good journal, and it's FUN. Except.. usually when I'm doing this, it's because I'm avoiding something else. Then I remind myself: taking ACTION > planning what I will do someday. Take action! Keep sending those resumes, keep plotting what city to move in, up and go. Be brave - it's part of being named Kerry, I tell ya. xo

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  5. Aw, honey. Sometimes our plans don't go the way we want, but everything that's meant to be will be. It's cliche, but I honestly believe that. I've always been an obsessive planner and I don't think anything has ever gone the way I wanted it to, but I'm happy!

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  6. Oh boy, can I relate! I am an obsessive planner. I can't go on with my day without having something to plan about - even if I know I won't put the effort into making it come true. It's almost like my "hobby"~ I can't wait to move out my parents place, too. It's been the biggest thing I've been planning all year. I'm so going off to research new places around the US to live now. Thanks for the awesome idea. . <3

    You'll find something great and we're gonna move out and start our own real life lives and it's going to be awesome! :)

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  7. I'm a planner myself...I can totally relate. I've been struggling with the fact that my plans just haven't worked out so well and I'm 25 - what's wrong with me?? You're not alone girlfriend.

    I've been enjoying reading so much that I nominated you for the Liebster Award - check out my latest post for more info if you'd like. I look forward to reading more!

    Lots of love...Danya

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  9. I'm the opposite of you.... not a planner at all. I just do what I do because it makes me feel good.

    This may explain actions of mine such as moving across the country on a whim.

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  10. Ciao from your newest follower! (140th, yay!) I am a planner too and I am trying to let go a bit, but I love the colorful notebook/calendar/fun color codes/sharpies aspect of it too. I mean, what is not to love?! But it is good to step BACK and let life work it's magic sometimes. Very meaningful post, love!
    And I love your blog. Can't wait to come back veeeery soon :)
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  11. You're a wonderful writer.
    And planning is good, but sometimes we plan too much because we're too worried about the future. Right now I'm at a place where I have to set the colorful sharpies down and not plan and just... be.

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  12. I say keep trying! Sometimes plans work out and sometimes they don't. But I believe it will all work out for the best in the end. :)

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  13. I work through post-it notes like people work through morning coffee. I re-write my to-do list every night then spend some time thinking about stuff I want/need to do and how I'm going to do it/get there... a daily routine! Sounds stressful? Wrong... so calming!

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  14. I am and have always been like this. I would make contingency plans and idea plans. And I still do. But it sometimes drives me crazy because people are the uncontrollable variable in my plans. They don't do what they're supposed to/or what I expect them to do at all times.

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  15. I say keep going girl. Soemtimes we feel crushed but if you keep pushing through it you'll find that all your plans are coming true. I just adore how ambitious you are. Great post!
    xo TJ

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  16. plans are everything, and at the same time they are nothing. i just stumbled across this post, it's good girl! i'm a big fat planner too. but sometimes you gotta give it up and let it go. ;) xx Fel

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